I have NO Willpower!!
Well, I shouldn’t say I have NO Willpower, but it feels like that at times. I have plenty of willpower for things I don’t like, but sometimes none for those that I do. A good friend of mine even said that to me not long ago. He is also a Beachbody Coach. We were at a function and they had a big spread of all you can eat foods. I did pretty good on most of the stuff, just tasting and sampling things here and there, but at the end of this spread, and when I say spread I mean SPREAD, there was an ice cream bar. The ice cream bar had chocolate, vanilla and strawberry ice cream, pineapple, cherries, Oreo pieces, caramel and chocolate syrup, M&Ms, Reeses Pieces, sprinkles, you name it. I got a big ol’ bowl of it and sat down, beside Melanie, who also had hers and we commenced to enjoy it, until my friend walked by and said laughingly, “You have NO Willpower!!” I’d like to say that diminished the enjoyment of the ice cream but we just grinned at each other and kept eating. How is it that I sabotage myself like that?? I had been doing so good! Working out hard is not a problem anymore. I’m used to it and I even enjoy soreness. In fact, I’m very sore today from doing Body Beast Bulk Legs yesterday. That weekend, we had also worked out twice for about an hour each time with the guys from Les Mills Combat, Dan and Rach!! I included my sweaty picture for you to enjoy. So, why do I have NO WILLPOWER when it comes to food? Peter Gabriel’s song “No Self Control” starts with the lyrics – “Got to get some food, I’m so hungry all the time, I don’t know how to stop, I don’t know how to stop”
How my having NO Willpower started
I am not making excuses, but I’m trying to figure out how/why this happens to me. I have given this a lot of thought. I was raised on a farm by parents who were raised during the depression era. My Mom cooked 2 meals a day during the school year (she was a school nurse) and 3 meals a day during holidays and the summer. We worked hard, we played hard and we ate well, mainly what we grew or raised. The food was good and plentiful usually. But, I can still hear my Mom saying, “Be sure to clean your plate. We didn’t have that much when we were growing up and you should be happy to have it.” Not many people know this but she basically made me eat rutabagas one time until I literally threw up. I still love them though. The bottom line is, eating everything she prepared for us made her feel good and gave her worth as a provider and Mom and it was GOOD!! Meals were ALWAYS finished with cakes, pies or some sort of dessert. I developed a sweet tooth early in life. I used to run through the house jumping up and down to make her pound cakes fall because they were better that way and she’d always holler at me to stop. Heh. The more I ate, the more my Dad would say “He REALLY likes that” and the more it pleased my Mom and the more that behavior was reinforced. I’d have to say we were eating for fuel because we were working hard, but we were also eating for fun. It was definitely a social time.
How I kicked the No Willpower habit
I haven’t. I am getting better, but I will always be a recovering “foodaholic”. I have no idea how alcoholics or children/parents of alcoholics feel. I do know a little about nicotine. I saw my Dad quit smoking when he was in his early 50s. It took him almost dying of a rupture in his lung to bring him to his senses but it was something he learned to live without. FOOD on the other hand, is something we need to live. That is what makes it tough. It’s still social. “Let’s go to lunch” – “Let’s go to Dinner” – Church Socials, Super Bowl Parties, nearly EVERY social gathering is going to have food. At our Sunday School Party this year, I walked around the table, full of stuff people brought and looked at Melanie and said, “Where is the food?” She said, “On that table right there.” I said, “No, that is nothing but desserts, where is the food?” She said, “That’s it.” Everybody brought sweets. There were some deviled eggs, meatballs and little smokie sausages but other than that, it was SUGAR/CARB HEAVEN!! And, as much as I wanted to resist, I just had to sample a bit of everything, in an attempt to make the people who brought it happy I guess. So, I’ll always be a “foodaholic”. I think that explains why we have the obesity problem in this country and around the world. Something we need for survival can so easily get out of control. So, I’m still in the process of learning how to eat for fuel and not for fun. I read somewhere that “You are not a Dog! Stop rewarding yourself with food!” That is what I’m still learning to do, and every day is a challenge because the stuff out there that is so yummy is so cheap and so accessible. That is why I love Shakeology. I can get my chocolate fix every day and it’s healthy and good for me. Join me on the journey to better health and let’s kick this NO WILLPOWER problem together.